Not really learning…

This is not going to be my typical learning project post. This past week has been very difficult for me and because of this, I feel as though my learning project has suffered. Something that many people don’t know about me is that I have anxiety and depression. While on a normal day I can function exceptionally well I have triggers just like everyone else that gets me into a state where I have to take a step back and re-evaluate what I am doing and see the change that needs to be made to make the situation better.

This week I had an incident that took place that made it necessary to take a step back from school this week and I am slowly clawing my way back out of the homework pile that I have built for myself. While I love working on my learning project I found that last week I could not bring myself to get motivated. I was overwhelmed and I think this may have been a result of trying to learn online.

While I enjoy being a creator and being able to teach myself there comes a time where you need a little structure and guidance and that is where I was at last week. I was watching tons of different youtube videos about scrapbooking and a number of different blogs. What I found was that they were all providing inspiration and starting points but never really explained what to do once you reached the point of how to tie it all together or how to create a cohesive theme. This is the point I am at in my learning project.

I have tons of ideas and I have attempted to start putting them together but I am getting frustrated with how difficult it is to be satisfied with the overall look and feel of the project. I have been fighting with it now for a while and I have already restarted a few times but one thing I did not really take into consideration was the overall cost of the project.

I knew that there would be a startup cost. My first shopping trip to get the basics like a book, paper, and protective pages was $70. Then I realized that I don’t live in an area where I have easy access to art supplies so I had to make a trip to Regina and order the rest online. My online order got left out on the step in the rain and everything was damaged so I had to wait twice as long to get my materials. Shoutout to Amazon customer service for being awesome and trying their best to help me out in a crummy situation. Boo to FedEx who claimed someone signed for a package when it was left outside in a storm.

To make a long story short I will be posting an actual learning post this week after I have some time to make some actual progress.

For anyone else who is also struggling to balance work, school and life here are some awesome online resources:

Mental Health Wellness Week (Good Mental Health Strategies)

Crisis Center (Coping Skills)

Positive Psychology Program (Stress Management)




8 thoughts on “Not really learning…

  1. Amber, this is such an honest post! You’re not alone. I’ve also been struggling with maintaining my mental health while life still goes on. I have discovered to me that finishing one assignment on time or making something perfect is not worth putting myself through so much. I hope your scrapbooking stuff works out. I have loved looking through your other learning project posts. You are doing so great!

    Sending you lots of positive vibes!


  2. Amber, thanks for being so honest with your post. I think it’s really admirable that you’re able to talk about your struggle. I know how hard it can be to balance depression and anxiety with school, work and other life stuff and it’s not easy but you’re doing an amazing job! I also really loved the links you included at the end. I can’t wait to see your Summary of Learning!


  3. Hi Amber,
    What a well written, emotional, excellent post. Thank you so much for sharing something difficult about yourself within your blog; that took strength and courage. I’ve missed you over the last few weeks, as you were always one of my EDTEC 300 buddies. I’m so glad to see you’re up and running with us again. Keep up the excellent work.


  4. Hi Amber, I can really relate to how you are feeling. Last semester was a tough one for me because I had so much going on and I was pushing myself too hard. I wasn’t listening to my body (and I know better than that) and as it happened, one day I had a complete melt-down and totally fell apart. But, eventually I got better and started to dig myself out of the homework pile that was heaped on top of me.

    I hope that you start to feel better soon and that the rest of the semester will be smooth sailing!

    Take care,


  5. I really admire you being willing to share your story! You are such a strong girl! I want you to know that you are not alone in this and that you have all of your EDTC 300 classmates standing behind you for support! Take your time to take care of yourself first, that’s something we all forget to do from time to time! Don’t let this temporary setback bother you too much! I know that you can push through! Best of luck on your future posts! Stay positive! 🙂

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  6. Wow Amber, that so brave of you to share your story. I hope everything can begin to run smoothly for you and come together. Take time with what you need to do because self care is the most important thing right now!! Take care! I also appreciate the links you provided at the end of your blog. You’re so strong and doing so well.

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  7. Amber, I completely understand where you are coming from. I too suffer from anxiety and depression. You are not alone with having no motivation. Normally, I am a student who keeps up with assignments, but I haven’t been feeling to great either the past little while. I find it even difficult to find the motivation to tweet. I hope you start to feel better soon! Anxiety and depression are no joke, they suck the life out of you. I know you will find your way out of this slump and provide your viewers with a wonderful masterpiece. Praying you have a smooth rest of the semester filled with positive thoughts and motivation!

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